Welcome to my first blog post. I’m a 18-year old girl from Amsterdam, The Netherlands. I love singing, dancing and acting (so obviously musicals). I also love reading, learning new things, rain, music, family, shopping, being outside and traveling. I’m a cat person, law student and a vegetarian.
Why this blog?
I have been bullied a lot as a child, mostly by the same girl and her group. But still I was always loudly talking in class, had enough ‘friends’ and did what I wanted. Sure I had moments where I broke down in tears and my mom had to comfort me. But overall I was hopeful for the future and I was thankful for having my ‘friends’. After elementary school (basisschool in Dutch) I thought high school ( ‘middelbare school’, the Dutch education system) would be better and I couldn’t wait to go. It started off great. I found immediately new friends and finally felt like I belonged. Long story short, all my old friends left me and my new friends did as well in the same year. This made me have a low self esteem. I didn’t know I was depressed and I was sick a lot. As a result I had to go to a lower education level. More things happened and I became more of a closed person. I have overcome my depression after nearly 5 (or more) years, but some days I still struggle, and I have anxiety. My idea to start this blog was to share my experiences (so I could write my feelings down as I love writing) and help others who are struggling with similar things. What I’ve learned over the last couple of years is that loving, laughing and dreaming made me happy and has helped me to grow. So that explains the blog name. I’m a dreamer with goals for the future and overcoming my fears step by step.